( he's dealing with a lot more than just, Sam being in striking vicinity.
yeah, an opportunity to keep him from offing half the population. but he can't say that, can he? )
Sam's -- ( how can he put it? ) He's been through it, to Hell and back. He escaped the cage. He's... ( soulless. ) Hell did a number on him, so don't be surprised if he's skittish. He's dark, Rowena. Probably not the Sam you remember.
Perhaps not but... I know something about his experiences.
( partly through her own, partly through the conversations that they'd had, even if rowena knows that samuel had experienced far more than he'd told her. they had a common ground but sharing those horrors was still a lot )
But he wouldn't be the man I remember. He hasn't met me yet.
( so no matter what she knows he wouldn't trust her. yet )
( she's covering her feelings in alcohol and her walls, refusing to let dean see what she's feeling. let him be happy even if he hasn't gotten there yet, she doesn’t matter, she doesn’t need worrying about.
( It's his easiest, quickest, ask no questions past that answer. It's not his Sam, but it's a Sam, right? So why do they both have to be in the same place at the same time? )
This city really likes taking us from the same period in time. Parallel. ( he tips his glass with a, 'Huh,' and then takes a sip. ) With your luck, he'll slip into one of those Sleeping Beauty comas, come out, and -
( Thanks for that. Something about her doesn't get his motor running. Her respect and trust in him isn't hot, though she is, and he's got more to worry about. )
( and that is all a mark of winchester influence. okay, maybe a few years ago rowena may genuinely have helped a young girl in need, depending on the circumstances, but it may not have been as entirely kind. this only has kindness in it: security for the both of them and better living for her charge.
finishing her drink she slides the glass a little further from her, standing from her stool )
But for now I need to help myself.
( she's still wearing the same clothes she was released from jail in, so not on )
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Date: 2025-01-21 10:58 pm (UTC)yeah, an opportunity to keep him from offing half the population. but he can't say that, can he? )
Sam's -- ( how can he put it? ) He's been through it, to Hell and back. He escaped the cage. He's... ( soulless. ) Hell did a number on him, so don't be surprised if he's skittish. He's dark, Rowena. Probably not the Sam you remember.
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Date: 2025-01-21 11:06 pm (UTC)( partly through her own, partly through the conversations that they'd had, even if rowena knows that samuel had experienced far more than he'd told her. they had a common ground but sharing those horrors was still a lot )
But he wouldn't be the man I remember. He hasn't met me yet.
( so no matter what she knows he wouldn't trust her. yet )
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Date: 2025-01-21 11:12 pm (UTC)( So she can wrap her mind around the timing. He doesn't know how the timelines work or when Rowena even becomes a factor. )
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Date: 2025-01-21 11:16 pm (UTC)so she drinks more, almost finishing her glass )
If he's here why are you in a bar alone?
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Date: 2025-01-21 11:18 pm (UTC)( It's his easiest, quickest, ask no questions past that answer. It's not his Sam, but it's a Sam, right? So why do they both have to be in the same place at the same time? )
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Date: 2025-01-22 01:05 pm (UTC)( she's very certain that they've spent many a chat in a bar together before )
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Date: 2025-01-23 12:31 am (UTC)( and she knows all of Dean's details. )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:12 pm (UTC)And... that's all the time you have for him?
( with a tone of slight disappointment )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:17 pm (UTC)( he uses the joke later on, and he can't really -- talk about it, only around it. )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:23 pm (UTC)Which I'm certain had nothing to do with you.
( press x to doubt )
He'll come back later, no doubt, particularly with this weather.
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:26 pm (UTC)( presses o to confirm. )
His room's next to mine, he knows where to find me.
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:28 pm (UTC)Which floor?
( so she can be not as near )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:34 pm (UTC)The guy didn't take Hell well, so a warning in advance if he's less cuddly and compassionate than you remember.
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:40 pm (UTC)( and whilst rowena had never seen samuel then she knows how much the trauma still affected him years later. as hers did )
That is something I understand. That and him not knowing who I am.
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:44 pm (UTC)( He'll know her. )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:53 pm (UTC)You may hope... I've learned not to.
( not through no one here knowing her but through the course of her life. relying on people? not her thing. nor believing in them )
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Date: 2025-01-23 10:58 pm (UTC)( he wouldn't call it that. ever )
You OK? You seem... extra disappointed.
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Date: 2025-01-23 11:05 pm (UTC)I was in jail before this conversation.
( she holds up a hand to wave anything off, especially with her change in topic )
All I need is a long bath and something you certainly can't provide.
( or wants to hear about )
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Date: 2025-01-23 11:16 pm (UTC)( Thanks for that. Something about her doesn't get his motor running. Her respect and trust in him isn't hot, though she is, and he's got more to worry about. )
What landed you in jail this time?
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Date: 2025-01-23 11:21 pm (UTC)( seems to run in the universe. though rowena would claim she has different issues to why she hadn't )
Though I've recrified that hence my being here.
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Date: 2025-01-24 11:00 pm (UTC)We should set an alarm or something or mark a calendar. You know them? Trust them?
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Date: 2025-01-24 11:05 pm (UTC)( sure, rowena hadn't offered a contract immediately on meeting her but being in jail had certainly given her perspective and time to think )
She gets a better situation and I don't fear her.
( a gentle thing with no supernatural power? harmless )
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Date: 2025-01-24 11:07 pm (UTC)( so it's a she. )
We help who we can.
( or would've had he not been confronted like she was and then chose cas. and then... sort of trapped sam. )
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Date: 2025-01-24 11:11 pm (UTC)( and that is all a mark of winchester influence. okay, maybe a few years ago rowena may genuinely have helped a young girl in need, depending on the circumstances, but it may not have been as entirely kind. this only has kindness in it: security for the both of them and better living for her charge.
finishing her drink she slides the glass a little further from her, standing from her stool )
But for now I need to help myself.
( she's still wearing the same clothes she was released from jail in, so not on )
Goodnight, Dean.
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Date: 2025-01-24 11:13 pm (UTC)( She survives. Something tells him she's a survivor. )