Okay, maybe I haven't reached out to Cas. I don't want... [There's another sigh.]
I know I need to get a handle on this. The only thing I can think is... wait did you say 'drink him away?' When has that ever solved anyone's problems?
No, Sam. Because when I went through Hell and post-Hell, I played through. Eventually, I stopped picturing it every time I closed my eyes. And, my Hell actually found me. Yours is haunting you. When Alistair creeps into my nightmares, then maybe I'll know what to do.
My idea's Rowena. Or Cas.
Why would Lucifer be this embedded in your brain? Cause if this means he's just on the other side of your eyes and this close to taking over then we're having a completely different conversation.
I mean, all I saw was you pretending everything was okay until it eventually was. Is that what you want me to do?
Already on the line with Rowena.
Maybe my soul was never meant to get out of the cage. I mean, he's said as much. Gone as far to say I'm still in Hell. Or I'm split between the two places. He's told me to doubt you, too.
Dude, you do what you have to do. Obviously, you came to me because you're worried. I just don't know what you think I could do about it. Or why you thought I'm now not going to about my brother who's seeing Lucifer everywhere.
You're not in Hell.
Lucifer can shove it. Your soul belongs in you, Sam. If I know anything, it's that. Don't let him get to you.
You're already doing it, aren't you? Not bottling it up and losing it. You're reaching out touching hands and reenacting Sweet Caroline. You ask me, you're doing the right thing.
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:24 pm (UTC)What do you need, Sam?
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:27 pm (UTC)[There's a quiet sigh. This would be easier in person, but he knows Dean's busy.]
They're getting worse. The hallucinations.
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:32 pm (UTC)Lucifer again?
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:33 pm (UTC)Yeah. He's, uh, he's. He's gotten a lot more persistent.
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:35 pm (UTC)( A beat. )
Or, you keep it all buttoned up?
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Date: 2025-03-11 11:52 pm (UTC)( a longer sigh follows. )
You got a get a hold of this, Sam. Drown him out, drink him away, figure something out. Do you even know why this is happening?
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Date: 2025-03-12 12:03 am (UTC)I know I need to get a handle on this. The only thing I can think is... wait did you say 'drink him away?' When has that ever solved anyone's problems?
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Date: 2025-03-12 12:07 am (UTC)( He thought this conversation would start somewhere else. That he had this coming, that Sam would push for feelings or something.
But, no, he's just another solutionist. He's not Sam's brother, just fearless leader. What can he do for Sam? )
Talk to Cas. Or, Rowena.
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Date: 2025-03-12 12:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-12 12:26 am (UTC)He's just going to call back and when Sam answers. )
Did you just hang up on me?
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Date: 2025-03-12 12:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2025-03-12 12:40 am (UTC)Bitch says what?
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Date: 2025-03-12 12:47 am (UTC)I'm doing what you suggested. I'm talking to Rowena instead of you.
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:21 am (UTC)You've got no ideas besides drinking myself into a coma every day?
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:30 am (UTC)My idea's Rowena. Or Cas.
Why would Lucifer be this embedded in your brain? Cause if this means he's just on the other side of your eyes and this close to taking over then we're having a completely different conversation.
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:47 am (UTC)Already on the line with Rowena.
Maybe my soul was never meant to get out of the cage. I mean, he's said as much. Gone as far to say I'm still in Hell. Or I'm split between the two places. He's told me to doubt you, too.
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:50 am (UTC)You're not in Hell.
Lucifer can shove it. Your soul belongs in you, Sam. If I know anything, it's that. Don't let him get to you.
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Date: 2025-03-12 01:58 am (UTC)I'm serious Dean, he's in my face. There isn't any ignoring him. Shouting used to do it but not any more.
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Date: 2025-03-12 02:01 am (UTC)I know you're serious. What's Rowena saying?
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Date: 2025-03-12 03:10 am (UTC)Still talking.
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Date: 2025-03-12 03:27 am (UTC)Maybe you need
A soul train
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Date: 2025-03-12 03:29 am (UTC)Goodnight Dean.
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Date: 2025-03-12 03:29 am (UTC)Night
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